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Boring Weekend~
Well.. must have sound surprise to hear this from a NS personnel right?? haha.. Weekends are so hard to come by.. but i still feel bored... hmmm... what could be the reason behind it.. i also have no idea..
Hmm.. maybe i guess it was my injury that cos me to be a bit bored.. then again.. the pain wasn't as bad as wed when i wake up and find that i can't bend my knee.. haha.. always look on the bright side of life i guess.. hahah...
And yup.. about my 21st bday celebration... i think i will most likely be holding it at my place.. on the 11 Oct.. cos my chalet dreams had be gone down the drain.. haiz.. cannot take any more leave as i have to clear them during NOV for block leave... haiz... Super sian.. i guess it might be another reason why i am so bored this weekend..
Hmm.. Camp life is seem to be changing everyday... i just got my orders that i will be transferred to another branch for the time being to help out the work load there.. then again, it may be a blessing in disguest.. but i might have to run 2 branches.. haiz..
Maybe in Nov.. i might intend to go overseas.. haha.. haven't really decided on it yet.. but will do so by next month... hmm.. now i guess i will be looking forward to celebrating my 21st bday.. haha. anyway.. next week end i don't think it will be a boring one as its one of my close buddy.. Patrick's 21st bday.. haha.. woah.. this month is exciting sia.. haha...
Okay la.. i got to go liao. hahah.. if not cannot wake up later in the morning.. haha.
Friday, September 26, 2003
Rest Day
Okay.. i did get to go home after i went back to camp yesterday... although i didn't see the MO.. but i just feel its a super bad day yesterday..
Today, i woke up feeling much better and the weather was good... not too hot and not too cold.. keke.. its just the perfect weather to sleep.. keke...
so happy.. stayed at home and watched all the japanese anime... haha.. woah.. felt like it was back at school again.. haha.. like can watch all of my favourite programs from SCV.. haha..
SHIOK sia!! keke..
After which, i just ate my medicine and just go to sleep.. woah.. been sleeping the whole day.. damm shiok. haha. the feeling is indescribable.. haha.. just like slacking.. hahah.. but its without anyone looking over ur back etc.. nagging down ur throat.. haha...
Feel very relaxed today! just maybe because of the rest i have today.. keekee.. feeling real refresh and joyful.. haha.. just feel like dancing in the rain. heehee.. a bit siao liao.. yes i know.. but maybe some of the japanese anime really describe what situation i am currently in now.. heehee. that's why i felt so relax. i guess. keke...
Hmm.. now dunno how to celebrate my 21st bday.. at 1st i wanted a chalet but its after my bday.. and my dad n bro told me that no one celebrates after their bday is over.. so now i am in a dilimena.. haiz.. don't know what to do... hmm.... i guess i got to re-think and re-plan my schedule again.. hmm..
Maybe i should have a seperate one... one with family.. the other with friends.. but like that is abit difficult.. arggh.. dunno yet.. hmm.. maybe i can think of it better when i wake up in the morning..
Till then.. Chaoz! ^-^
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
Lousy Day
Hmm.. yesterday i had a fall and injured my knee.. thought it wasn't serious, i didn't go see my MO in camp.. then this morning.. the pain was extremely pain.. so i went to see my GP, got 2 days mc.. but now i got to go back to camp to endorse the mc.. what rubbish is this!
The best part about it is that i might have my mc being taken off saying that i can perform normal duties.. wah.. if that were to happen, i can only say this and i mean it....
SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES IS FULL OF SHIT and its A FUCK UP PLACE which WASTE MALE CITIZENS TIME!!!
Even though the SAF CORE VALUES state that there is CARE FOR SOLDIERS.. i think its more like BULL SHIT!!!
I also heard that what UNITY the SAF is trying to show by BACK SABBING people!! woah.. what unity there is in the ARMY!! yee ha!! I hope that one fine day, when SINGAPORE really goes to war, how many pple will abandon this foresaken place !
What family values, what care.. what shit.. its all fuck up!
All i see in the army is that when u have RANK.. u just use them to push around other lower rank or new birds in the camp.. woah.. such family values really ought be be look greatly into!
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Doggy weekend!@!
Muhahah..... its my 1st time bring my little treasure to a dog show at Expo today!! haha..
Saw many kinds of breeds... one of which is my favourite.. Siberian Husky!! the doggies there are all so beauitful!! yup.. of cos my doggy, surely enjoyed himself like mad!! seeing so many of his fellow friends there!!! hahah....
Hmm.. the dog show at Expo got some competition.. such as .. urm.. Obedience, Aglility, General Condition...etc....
I brought my doggy to look at the Obedience competition.... when i looked at those dogs there, woah.. my heart is broken sia!! They are machiam super power!!!
The owner no need to give the command of 'sit', 'down', 'stand'... just simply by hand signals!!
Then i look at mine.. haiz.. can faint.. only work with food in hand.. if not.. haiz.. call also don't listen.. (maybe i should enroll it in an obedience class.. muahhaha.. then can be as good as the dog trainers taking part in competition) hahah... thinking too much liao.. maybe if i can get permanent stay out status, i think i will do so la.. if not.. just have to wait.. hmm..
Of cos at the Expo today, not only having the dog show exhibition, but got food exhibition too!! haha.. saw lots of chiobus too!! haha.. some with boyfriends.. some with family.. keke..
woah.. really can feel the love in the air sia!! haha...
hmm.. well. i gotto sign off now.. maybe be back on tues.. if can tomorrow.. haha..
still have to bath my doggy!@!
^-^
Thursday, September 18, 2003
Feeling A bit S|ck... =<
Well.. its my book out day again!! but just feel a little sick these few days..
must be the weather... can't stand it! Rain and shine.. rain and shine.. the humidity is killing me sia...
haiz.. my nose is be like blocked for abt 4 days liao.. until now still not okay.. feel like cutting it down n clear the blockage then put it back again... haha.. a bit siao liao right...
then yesterday.. my eye ball out of the blue. hurt like hell.. touch it also pain.. don't touch.. itchy.. wah liao.. can kill myself sia!!!!
haha.. then today just don't have the mood to do my office work... The kind of feeling.. i just can't think of how to describe it.. its like ... u feel sick and wanna just go back home and rest.. but on the other hand.. u have lots of work to do... arrghh.. Army life... really can cry... i guess if the majority of the male species can go pass their 2 1/2 yr in there.. i think i should be able to go through it too.. hopefully don't have any problems sailing through the rough winds n storms.. haha...
hmm.. the weekend is near... at least there is something to look forward to !! haha.. maybe can get to use the car for the weekend!! yeah!! can go out with my friends liao!! haha.. cos my bro going to batam i think.. heehee..
i didn't know that my 'bao pei' dog can run damm fast.. idiot !! he like playing catching with me.. haha. cos i just came back from a short jog with him.. basket... he let me run past him then u pia all the way.. then slow down... let me take over then he cheong again.. shit man!! but he can run fast.. also is natural!! haha.. he got 4 legs.. i got 2.. haha.. (i'm not defending myself okay!! =P) some more i am sick leh!! haha...
Then today.. was an okay day in office for me.. except for the part of being sick la.. other than that.. its just a not so bad day at office.. ^^
Maybe i should go excerise more to not fall sick so easily.. haha.. guess i will have to start from next week.. heehee... this week rest 1st, to recuperate my health! haha...
hmm.. well.. signing off for now! haha.. going to play my PS2 games liao! heehee...
^^
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Life gotto carry on!
hmm.. its be a while that i post some thing up on the webby!! haha..
maybe its just that i had spent too much time trying to get the html right for the blogger!! haha.. and yes.. i didn't make it at all.. i had to ask my friend's help! Thanks man Ed!
hmm.. i guess i have learnt something today.... in which i am more than glad to share !! heehee.. although life in the army is sucky.. and u always get blame when u are there at the wrong time and wrong place... but then, i just feel that i should just look on the bright side of life.. just like the advertisment which have the song, "Always look on the bright side of life.. (Whistle)..."
Although i kanna alot of shit the past week... i just feel like super down until a point of time, i guess its just super sian! Why must i feel down and beated when i don't need to feel that way?
haha.. so i just told myself, so what if the army life sucks.. its all up to one person to see it from another way.. just take it easy.. slow... haha.. then always look on the bright side of life! haha
hmm.. came back home earlier than usual today, watched holland V and then brought my doggy down for a stroll.. While walking him.. more like he dragging me... haha.. i looked up into the sky.. not bad.. it was clear and there were quite a few stars... haha.. then i thought to myself, hmm.. the night is good, the weather perfect... but the company a bit sala!! haha. no la.. of cos not la.. i love my doggy alot!! heehee.. but of cos. if the one next to me is the person i like.. haha. then it will be the best la!! hahah. ya.. all these are just dreams for now.. heehee.
Well, also feeling a little sick, stuff nose the whole day, feel like killing my nose.. but can't,.. still need it to survive in this world.. so just have to bare with it.. haha.. okay la.. i wanna go see what's new abt my blog.. keke. i might post some other things later!!
That's if i didn't sleep yet.
=P
Friday, September 12, 2003
Finally!
the last weekend that is going to be burnt will be coming soon!! Boy am i looking forward to it!
haha.. the thought of it really is shiok!! haha.. somemore, this week got extra long weekend..
wee-ha!
although not that long.. but i can book out tomorrow... yes!! no need to stay in camp! SHIOK!
but sat evening 1900 must be back in camp.. *cough Cough*
Sorry abt that, feeling a little sick, got caught in the rain la.. and now with a terrible stuffed nose.. very irriatable...
haiz.. forget abt my sick body .. back to some interesting thing i had learnt abt life in camp, the higher the rank, the more shit u can give others... put it in a simple way, u can get shot in the head by someone u only respect for the rank he got on his shoulder, but u can never respect him as a friend. i just don't know how to put it as some stuff i know if i write on the net, i might be in deeper shit...
haiz.. i just don't understand why when people get the rank of sergents and above, they seem to forget that they were once recurit, or men before.. its just a sad case...
but what the heck, i just hope that i will finish the life there asap! so that i can leave this sickening life in there!!! sucks!
haiz. i think i go find my medicine... if not i get more crappy!! haha..
well.. des per dai nio (goodbye in russian i guess)
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Helplessly, Unable to do anything.........
well, well.... back again today.. haha.. i got quite some things to say though...
maybe i shall start with the happy moments.. haha...
okay.. good idea.. hmm.. it was my 1st time going out of camp by a transport provided by army.. haha.. i went to another camp to get my PT attire.. haha.. super fun.. sat in a 5 tonner.. haha.. although no suspension.. or if there is, i don't feel it.. =P
had a great time.. away from office. haha.. then came back to camp and played UNO with my Staff and Co... super slack and shiok!!! haha.. its like a half day kinda of feeling... haha.... hmm.. so.. i guess this are the happy moments in camp.. keke... =)
hmm... now for the not so happy moments...
*sigh*... just dunno why, but everytime i think about life, it just sometimes pissed me off... the thought of liking someone but yet u don't tell, its just like taking a knife and cut through your own heart... hmm.. dunno why, but i guess its like for me, one part says its not wroth to take such risk, (risk of losing a friend, which i had lost many on the way here... Sob Sob). While the other part just say life here is short.. if u don't grab the opportunity, it will just be gone .. and its not going to be back so easily again...
Its like a war being wage up in the head.. woah .. really can die sia.. its like a battle with yourself!! The wrost part about me that i really cannot understand is this.... why the hell am i always helping others while i myself just stand aside and pull others together.. is it a system that is in-bulit in me? ! ? !
I really don't have any idea at all.. what have i done to be such a person.. *sigh*
Sometimes i really hate myself for doing such silly and stupid acts... why is it that i like someone, but that someone will have to be in love with another person?? ARRGHHH!!! its like a movie show sia.. can like predict what the shit is going to happen.. only thing, movie shows at least 80% is on the happy endings.. etc.. blah blah blah...
but for my case, it will seem to be the 'lucky' 20% of sad and pathetic endings... haiz...
Hmm.. i guess some how or rather.. maybe i should go be a monk. muahhaha.. then shave my head botak again.. like my BMT .. haha... super cooling with that hair cut!! keke
haiz.. i guess i won't want to bore my fellow good friends reading on.. so i will just stop here.. and go back to my deep thoughts..
keke...
Sunday, September 07, 2003
Feeling down??
hmm... its sure been a while since i last posted my blog..
haha.. well.. i actually did post something on thursday.. but it didn't came up.. so i have no idea.. heehee..
anyways... i went to watched priates of the caribann.. not a bad show!! heehee.. there are packed with comedy and action. .haha..
really one of a kind show!! heehee...
well.. i will be going back to camp in another 2 hours time.. sob sob.. but what to do.. in army.. life is just like that..
with no freedom to do as u like or what u like.. with all the stupid crappy officers that think that they are so great.. it just sucks in army..
argghh.. forget abt it....
hmm.. well.. i did went to play bowling with my unit.. yes.. the whole UNIT.. at Marina South.. one thing for sure that i was damm happy about is that i bowled the best among my unit.. haha... i played 3 games.. although each game got wrost scores than the previous one.. i guess its due to the injury that i suffered in the 1st game.. haha.. but it was also my all time high this yr~~
heehee.. i got 164, 143, 125 for the 3 games.. haha.. =)
damm proud of it.. haha.. beat everyone .. hahah.. but i guess its just that i was bored even though its an unit outing.. haven't had the slightess idea why.. but maybe its just because its still an army event...
hmm.. today( 060903 ) went to watch the show, yeah. then stayed out at AMK and chat with my close buddies, Jon and Pat.. about how each of us think abt life.. i found that people's thinking, ideas will change when they go into the army..
i guess its just what many of us will do when we are in there.. i just cannot stand it.. haiz.. got so many things to say.. but i haven't got any ideas on how to start at all...
i actually wanted to walk home from amk.. but i think of going back to camp = waking up early later.. i just flagged a taxi instead.. arggh... sometimes.. i just don't understand myself.. Why the hell am i doing things that i don't wish to do at all.. maybe its just my character.. maybe its just that i am running away from it. maybe its just that i am afaid to lose the something.. arrghhh.. i haven't had the feeling of feeling so so down at all.. i don't even know why... its just that its always be this way.. haiz.. i can't believe it.. after going into army... i don't even have much time to talk to my family at all.. what the shit is this!?!?... everyday when i reach home, i just wanna sleep.. do some of my own stuff ... and wake up the next day rushing back to camp... everything i once knew.. it was like all gone.. haiz.. i guess i am a bit crazy.. but i guess it just too much to handle... i dunno.. why the hell is my life feeling so upside down.. just feel like going to one corner and shout out loud.. do something to vent my frasrations.. just go runaway.. like a free bird... but i just feel so locked up.. tied down.. unable to do anything abt it.. i just seem to lost my direction in life.. haiz.. its like a cruise to nowhere.. and its just like i lost my north pt.. haiz.. i just have no idea.. i wanna go sleep now.. left only a hour plus more before revellie timing..
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Monday, September 01, 2003
Woah.. Time flies rather quickly!!
The last time i post a blog was on Sat.. And now, its already Monday.. haha. some of you might wonder how can i post a blog today.. i am susposed to be in camp now, not at home posting this blog. well i took leave in view to compensate my 3 continuous weekend being burnt!
Hmm.. just came back from Clara's 18th Bday @ Sentosa! haha. the island sure had changed alot since the last time i went there! of cos the admission price did change !! for the better of cos.. hahah... now economy bad.. so maybe that's why so cheap !! ($3/- only, i took a bus in from Harbour Front Interchange.. hmm.. they modified the buses travelling in there too!! hahah..
Well, I am very glad to be invited to her birthday party, heehee.. although i only know her for like say about 2 months .. haha.. through i didn't get the chance to talk much with her at her birthday chalet.. haha. i did make some new friends.. only thing is that i got only one contact no. haha.. Well, i played beach volleyball today at the palawan beach, hmm.. i can still vividly remember the time when i played it with my taiwanese friends two years back.. hahah.. all of us at that time really had such great fun that we forget to put on our sun block.. yeah.. we got roasted well done by the sun that day.. haha.. all going back home with sun burns.. haha.. the next day that we met, all of us either gone darker or became cooked lobster.. hahah.. haiz.. those were the days of freedom and fun.. *tsk tsk* (Shake Head) Well, now in army, it ain't that of a free bird as i used to be.. haha.. but i guess i just have to learn how to adapt to it.. Coming back to today, hahah.. we played beach volleyball with other people at the beach.. haha.. it was great fun, keke even though i seldom touch the ball.. hahah.. but i guess its just for the fun of it.. keke.. Well, i think i did enjoy myself alot .. esp when i don't think abt my camp.. hahah.. the time fly real fast today, i guess its because i sleep until early afternoon.. actually i did woke up at 0645 today, thinking that Clara and her other 2 friends would want to go see the sun rise, but then, i saw them sleeping so soundly that i just didn't want to wake them up from their dreamland.. heehee.. thus i continued to sleep until abt 0815.. i heard noises and i saw them( Clara and Nick) going off to school.. i guess. heehee.. well, didn't say anything, but just continue sleeping again.. haha. i was actually semi-sleeping all the time i guess.. hmm.. i did think if i had woken up early, i would be very bored.. cos i got nothing else better to do.. haha.. so i had a good rest for 9 hours.. haha.. 1st time i sleep until so shiok when i am not at home and more importantly, not in camp! heehee..
hmm.. i guess in a blink of an eye, it will be my turn to celebrate my 21st birthday already! haahaa.. Well until then, just taking one day at a time! heehee..
actually i am already thinking of how to celebrate my 21st birthday.. haha.. i haven't decided on what i want to do, but hopefully that period (EXAMS TIME) most of my friends can make it.. if not, i guess i will just have to celebrate it with my family only.. but i am pretty sure that most of my good buddies won't disappoint me! keke!!
haiz.. i guess i have to stop for now, need to go pack my stuff for camp tomorrow!
=)